Hi, my name is Barbara.
I just love the work we are doing here at Healing Millions and I am so excited to bring it to you. I believe Nursing Nidra will help you change your life so that you can become the best version of YOU every single day.
I went from a broken child in an adult body to a highly successful mother and business woman against all odds.
I don’t want you to have to suffer as long as Karrie and I. Nursing Nidra streamlines the process and helps you to shorten the time it takes you to feel better, no matter what your starting point.
I was essentially born into PTS. I had a violent and raging father who beat my older sister. I witnessed her beating for the first time at the age of about 3. My father terrorized the entire family. We were all afraid of him and his rages, especially my mother, who used us, her own children, as human shields against him. I lived with the stress of fear and hypervigilance, never knowing when one of my parents would snap and go into a rage.
I began drinking at the age of 16. I left my family as soon as I could, but not before my father actually had his hands around my throat choking me. I finally escaped from the terror, but I hadn’t been taught how to take care of myself. I was essentially living on the street and virtually homeless for several years, living in warehouses, attics, and even twice living in a closet in friends apts. A small miracle got me into college, and after my undergrad degree, I got sober, I got married, and had a daughter. I ended up staying in school straight through to my PhD. And I celebrate my sobriety of 37 years!
In 1995, I discovered the teachings of personal development through a Tony Robbins coach. Studying with many thought leaders in the field I learned how to change my thinking from a pattern that consistently held me in negative behaviors to one that promotes my mental and physical wellbeing.
What I have learned is that I have to take care of myself without guilt. I was taught by the narcissists who raised me that it was NOT OK for me to take care of myself. Society is constantly telling us that it is our responsibility to GIVE BACK. Well, that won’t work, if your tank is empty and you are running on fumes. In 1997, I collapsed in July and didn’t get out of bed until December, diagnosed with Hashimoto’s, a stress related illness.
I cannot emphasize enough how much so many of us minimize what we are going through. When we look around, we can always find someone else who has it worse. Especially you being a nurse, you deal with life and death every day.
One of my biggest traits is that I completely minimize what I am going through. I had a 5 cm x 9.4 cm tumor on my left ilium, and I was still walking 2 miles a day. I seriously minimize my pain. I thought that if I just kept moving, it would work itself out. Muscle spasms, that’s all it is. I can handle it.
My epitaph could read, “She could handle it!” But I know now that when I am having to “handle” something, it is already handling me. I have had to learn that life is not an endurance test. I am not supposed to see how long I can “take it.” And neither should you! What I have learned is that you have to put yourself first. This is not about being selfish, it actually helps you be there more for others. You cannot serve others from an empty vessel. It is our birthright to be able to take care of ourselves.